Unfortunately Fortunate.

I won. 

I won the lottery with a jackpot worth $1,000,000,000. Putting the wide ranges of emotions rushing ecstatically throughout my system aside, I would first ensure my grandmama moves out of this dump of a living place and send her off somewhere she can garden happily. What I do next could ultimately determine the road I choose to journey in my life. I could: 

1. Buy a beach house, drop out of school, get married, and perhaps live the rest of my life without stressing. 

2. Keep some of it and the rest will go to hard-working families that demonstrate their destitution ( i know, horrible). 

I assume that most would select choice number 1, simply because thats the easy way out. Some may find it satisfying to live a life when everything is given to you. You may have won a fast pass to the good life but on the other side, you may have lost something money can't buy: The genuine-ness (not a word) within people, and maybe even yourself. The people around you, the so-called new 'friends' of yours, what's their ultimate motive in being around you? Perhaps some you can believe that they are truly there for the your sake, yet on the other hand, can you really trust the rest? Therefore you live the rest of your life in doubt of everyone. 

Life is full of surprises, experiences, happiness, challenges, etc. These are all things we all must go through to get the most in life. We fall only to see ourselves climb back up and feel that utter sensation of triumph. We lose the ones we love to consequently cherish the ones we still have. We learn from our mistakes so that we can fall harder in love, all over again.

What fun would it be if everything was written out for you? How much do you get out of life if you swing at every pitch thrown at you? How boring would life be if everything was perfect? 

and plus, what's the point of all this fame and fortune if you don't have anybody worthy to share it with? Psh. 

-Kenny Hin

Alyssa Bernal

She's an angel. I can't wait for us to get married. Sigh... I wish.

Different Dimension.

In a distant place far beyond my grasp is a dimension where anything can happen. The supernatural is existent but only when I fall in to this trance. Unlike reality, in this place I have no control over my actions, I'm simply an observer, a spectator of some sort. 

Dream. 

Where does our mind/body/spirit go when we fall asleep? Why can we travel to the utmost craziest places by not even lifting a finger? Why do I always wake up naked? Haha. 

I hate 24 hr fitness, i was having such a great dream and it was ruined by some guy trying to get me to join their club FML.

=Kenny Hin

Memory Switching Lanes.

So many regrets, so many wishes and forgets, so many "i wish we never mets'", 

Blame it on time, it goes by oh so fast, its best you cherish it, it won't last. 

Haha, It's weird to start off with a little poetry huh? I wish i had more time to just sit down and write poems, but we all know how life is living in the fast lane. 

We live each day accumulating memories, whether they're good or bad, our lives adapt and change according to what we've accumulated. This is human nature, but we must not CONFORM! I hate writing about this subject sometimes but we know to keep our guard up when it comes to the "L" word, because we've been hurt once before and we don't want go through it again right? Personally, I don't believe in the "holding your guard up because you don't want to get hurt" philosophy. I find it unfair that the asshole before me fucked up my chances at (maybe) the girl of my dreams. Why didn't he have to fight through your guarded heart? What makes him so special? I'm not saying don't cherish the moments you two had together because happy memories are hard to come around these days, but don't let it prevent you from exploring new horizons. Booth Tarkington once said "Cherish all your happy moments; they make fine cushion for old age". Believe it, you're stuck when senior citizen comes around, sometimes the only thing keeping you alive is happy thoughts. Some might say, "you learn from these mistakes",but what is there really to learn? No one is the same person. This is not math. You can not expect me to make the same mistakes he did. So treasure the happy memories, whomever the memories are made with, but let them be just memories, not detours in a life's course. 

-Kenny Hin

Motivation.

Reason. We all have a reason to live but motivation is what takes us to the next level. Motives are what dictates my actions; my catalyst for exceeding all expectations. 

My friend and I were talking the other day and the topic of "why do you work out?" came up. I tried to narrow it down to one answer, but there are so many. First and foremost I want to stay healthy, stay fit, live a little longer. Then there's security, being strong doesn't hurt when you're getting in a fight. Also security for the loved ones, I want my friends and family to know that if they're around me, they should feel safe and secure. For the girlfriend, where ever she is, that if she's willing to take the risk in falling in love with an asshole like me, there will be benefits that come along with her (dumb) decision. And I'm sure she'll be 'happy' with caressing my hot bod rather than a beer belly. 

the long run 

My lack of motivation for earning a education can be easily cured my envisioning my life 10 years from now. My wife, my kids, my house, my OWN family, they're going to need me. The amount of success I achieve will ultimately determine their direction. Plus, i want to live in a beach house. I want to see my kids play in the sand. I want watch the sun sink into the ocean. I want late night skinny dips with my fiancee. I want to eat dinner under the moonlight. If i were to live that life, i would have first have to live this life. 

"Shoots"

-Kenny HIn

Life Is Great, Then Reality Strikes.

I was tossing and turning, it felt as if my heart was burning (no intentions in rhyming). I woke up realizing that my 4 day rest has finally come to an end. My life was great during that time span:basketball, gym, eat, sleep. It was a routine, and i loved it oh so much. 

Today, i work. FML. 

My so-called Paradise had to come to an end sooner or later, like I said, life's great until reality strikes. 

God teases you, He will let you experience some happiness and then fucks you up when you're about to reach ecstasy. 

I've come to one and only one conclusion to all this massacre, "Life is about BALANCE". Yin and Yang. Hot and Cold. You win some, you lose some. For instance, you're a college student, you quit your job because juggling school and work is just too much. Yes, you will be poor. Yes, you will be very hungry. Yes, you will window shop every time you go to the mall. BUT, at the same time, you will learn. You will be investing on a successful future. You're a fatass and starving a little won't hurt your appearance, and by losing a few pounds, you find yourself a decent girlfriend and get laid! Ok, not a good example but that's all I could think of at the moment and you get my point. So i guess what i'm trying to say is, don't be sad for too long, something great is about to happen. ha. 

"She didn't steal my heart, I gave it to her." 

-Kenny Hin

Mind as well.

Everyone's doing it, i guess i will too. 

It's very unlike me that i condone with popularity but with the mindset of a journalist i could find some sense in blogging. 

Lately i've realized that I'm a little too comfortable with being in the dark, i mean it is summer, and it is only human to find shade but even in my room, my living room, at night. I just enjoy being in dark places. Does this make me emo? Everyday i come home from the gym or running some errands, i see my blinds open and an immense light brightening my room. I assume my grandma had opened them but it bothers me, the light bothers me. This is not a metaphor appealing to me avoiding heaven but could it be a sign?

I find it interesting how i find so much comfort in the dark, one because i use to be scared of the dark and two, I'm such a optimistic person. Happiness is represented by bright colors etc, not darkness. Perhaps the astrology is right, i always contradict myself. 

"I love you with my all my heart, if i still had one" 

-Kenny Hin